1. only 24 hours in a day. no 'infinity period' like in school.
2. no life
okay this is stupid stuff that cannot be solved. let me start again. rationally.
1. not being able to manage time the way i want to. out of sheer tiredness, and sometimes laziness and the inablilty to wake up when my alarm rings after my scheduled nap duration
2. not having, or not being able to make time for exercise. actively trying to fix this.
3. low self worth: stemming from lack of clinical acumen in the hospital, and from being fat
4. relationship: in a complete mess. unanswered questions, most questions i would rather not know the answer to. dissatisfied from the lack of expressed care/interest. jealousy. tired of being blamed for being sad/feeling unwell/making things go wrong every time. finding myself wanting to be alone more and more. trying to stay distant by texting less, calling less, talking MUCH less. havent talked properly in more than a month. deflecting and blaming everything on stress (?). generally unhappy but then thats not new.
goodnight.
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