i thought that the horrible mood i was in (the last time i posted) was cos Mag work was piling up. and elective deadlines were approaching (both are still piling and approaching, respectively) and also because my friends are on vacation. but a certain someone said to me: hey! you haven't spent enough time with me lately. No jogs, and no breakfast sessions before clinics. come out, lets have dinner, and you'll feel the difference in ten minutes.
his confidence irks me sometimes, but he was right. i did feel better. and the last two days have been a lot of fun, and i also got work done! the mag ball is rolling (and gaining momentum, hopefully) and elective research is complete. i know where i'm applying, more or less.
so here's a big Thank You to you, (even though you'll probably never read this). And especially for last night. Best Saturday night i've had in a while, because YOU made it special. with the peach vodka and all the chocolates and the JackDaniels. i love what we have, though its slightly odd.
I'm really really tired. my energy sapped. drained. yet my muscles are soooo relaxed. must be all the endorphins.
all is right in my world. except one question that needs to be asked. WHERE did my weekend go?
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Elective Madness
'forWARD and onWARD! to harWARD!' hehehe thats me!
'also..
when i searched "visiting electives" in san diego; they gave me a search result: "visiting for an elective caesarean ?!" ! wht the fuck' and this one's from JD, a gtalk conversation we had last night.
crazy busy times. mag work overwhelming. its impossible to handle both school and mag work at the same time. yet somehow, i've got to do it. this semester is going to wring me dry.
had ENT case presentation today. things went very well, until he asked me to draw the tympanic membrane on the white board. i blanked out, couldn't draw the correct side, and had no idea how to define a large central perforation. i'm a complete failure.
and i met Dr Vinay Kumar today! (of Robbins, Cotran, Kumar, Abbas, Fausto fame) he came to college to talk to the 5th sem students, i bunked class to attend. it was interesting and at the end of it i got my copy of Robbins signed by him. the new edition will be out this year, and includes a new author: Jon Aster. Looks like Brigham hospital is the place to be! if you're a Pathologist, that is.
i yelled at my committee today. no sense of responsibility they have, these 5th semester kids. they need to know who's calling the shots.
i'm in a very very bad mood. and i want to not be disturbed. by anyone or anything. i need some quiet time, alone. i haven't been this angry at the world in very long.
'also..
when i searched "visiting electives" in san diego; they gave me a search result: "visiting for an elective caesarean ?!" ! wht the fuck' and this one's from JD, a gtalk conversation we had last night.
crazy busy times. mag work overwhelming. its impossible to handle both school and mag work at the same time. yet somehow, i've got to do it. this semester is going to wring me dry.
had ENT case presentation today. things went very well, until he asked me to draw the tympanic membrane on the white board. i blanked out, couldn't draw the correct side, and had no idea how to define a large central perforation. i'm a complete failure.
and i met Dr Vinay Kumar today! (of Robbins, Cotran, Kumar, Abbas, Fausto fame) he came to college to talk to the 5th sem students, i bunked class to attend. it was interesting and at the end of it i got my copy of Robbins signed by him. the new edition will be out this year, and includes a new author: Jon Aster. Looks like Brigham hospital is the place to be! if you're a Pathologist, that is.
i yelled at my committee today. no sense of responsibility they have, these 5th semester kids. they need to know who's calling the shots.
i'm in a very very bad mood. and i want to not be disturbed. by anyone or anything. i need some quiet time, alone. i haven't been this angry at the world in very long.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
ENT sessional:
this year we have one and a half hour sessionals. 40 mark papers. makes it seem less intimidating somehow. until you realise that if u don't know 2 questions out of 7, it means you're failing. no point even attempting it.
which means i had to study. everything. EVERYTHING, do you understand? and knowing me, and how i get bored so easily (this means you, Y. snigger snigger) i had a hard time sticking to a schedule. which means i DINT study everything.
not that im failing or anything, i mean i dint know one 4 mark question on the impedence matching function of the middle ear, but the rest of it was pretty ok. im just ZONKED. who uses that word anymore?
i have an ENT OSCE tomorrow. and im hating the fact that im gonna have to study the same subject again. im used to a kind of release, a kind of gratefulness at not having to go over the same stuff again, and now im just ticked off.
an OSCE btw is like this objective test based on clinical settings: so its about x rays and case studies and photographs of patients and surgical instruments etc. i cant believe i dont know what OSCE stands for.
in happy news:
Her mom met my mom today! in delhi! yay. hopefully i'll get to meet Her whenever im in chennai. now that parents have met, its gonna be all chilled out!
things are not progressing anymore, and i'm getting over it.
Sim's coming back! this monday. right before my Surgery exam. timing.
i need a vacation. soon. things are getting to me. im depressed, and lonely. and i really wanna just SEE mom for a while. just BE. but i cant go home anytime soon, because right after exams i start ENT posting (UGH. WHY IS MY LIFE SO FULL OF ENT!) and i cant miss it because of the end posting exam and cos i need to know how to take an ent case! before Unis!
this year we have one and a half hour sessionals. 40 mark papers. makes it seem less intimidating somehow. until you realise that if u don't know 2 questions out of 7, it means you're failing. no point even attempting it.
which means i had to study. everything. EVERYTHING, do you understand? and knowing me, and how i get bored so easily (this means you, Y. snigger snigger) i had a hard time sticking to a schedule. which means i DINT study everything.
not that im failing or anything, i mean i dint know one 4 mark question on the impedence matching function of the middle ear, but the rest of it was pretty ok. im just ZONKED. who uses that word anymore?
i have an ENT OSCE tomorrow. and im hating the fact that im gonna have to study the same subject again. im used to a kind of release, a kind of gratefulness at not having to go over the same stuff again, and now im just ticked off.
an OSCE btw is like this objective test based on clinical settings: so its about x rays and case studies and photographs of patients and surgical instruments etc. i cant believe i dont know what OSCE stands for.
in happy news:
Her mom met my mom today! in delhi! yay. hopefully i'll get to meet Her whenever im in chennai. now that parents have met, its gonna be all chilled out!
things are not progressing anymore, and i'm getting over it.
Sim's coming back! this monday. right before my Surgery exam. timing.
i need a vacation. soon. things are getting to me. im depressed, and lonely. and i really wanna just SEE mom for a while. just BE. but i cant go home anytime soon, because right after exams i start ENT posting (UGH. WHY IS MY LIFE SO FULL OF ENT!) and i cant miss it because of the end posting exam and cos i need to know how to take an ent case! before Unis!
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