on a lighter note!

'lallan' being an inside joke. my juniors named their cadavers. lallan was just one of that crowd.

courtesy of the edboard09

lips of an angel

Honey, why you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now. Honey, why are you crying? Is everything okay? I gotta whisper because I can't be too loud.

Well, my girlfriend's in the next room. Sometimes I wish she was you. I guess we never really moved on.

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name...It sounds so sweet, coming from the lips of an angel.

Hearing those words makes me weak...and I never wanna say goodbye. But you make it hard to be faithful, with the lips of an angel.

It's funny that you're calling me tonight! And, yes, I've dreamt of you too.

And does he know you're talking to me? Will it start a fight? No, I don't think she has a clue.

Honey why you calling me so late?
Its too late... for this conversation. Even though it's really good to hear your voice saying my name. Its time to move on.

Casualty

my friend got a phone call last night. his dad. called to tell him that this girl in MIT (daughter of a friend) was very sick, and would he please go to the emergency room and find out exactly what went wrong.
we rushed there, it was 10pm. he asked me to come along because the presence of a med student might allow the doctor to explain what was wrong better. (but honestly, he knows as much as me, maybe more)
we strode into Casualty confidently, ignoring the students (dressed so obviously like MIT) huddled outside. Found her lying unconscious on the bed, with an IV line in her wrist. Her room mate was standing by, she told us:
She hasnt been eating well. for the last couple of days. yesterday i got back from class and she was asleep. i dint disturb her, i think her medication makes her drowsy.

medication?

yeah, she's been on something for her skin problem

skin problem? what problem?

um, she has these rashes on her arms.. anyway she's been taking medicines for that since a year or so. long time. but she hadn't woken up till dinner time, and when i tried to wake her up she wouldnt respond. i panicked, and we got her here. you know, she's so quiet and withdrawn, she never talks about her problems with anyone...

the doctor had arrived and he looked at us questioningly. no one likes a crowd around a bed in Casualty. asked him what was up, (i'm a KMC student, i will understand your words):
She came in altered sensorium. as you can see, she still hasnt woken up. we're going to keep her here, and run some tests. base line tests.

will she be ok?

i can't say now. we have no idea what happened. lets wait for the blood reports.

seizure? hypoglycemic shock? anti histamine overdose? steroid withdrawal? (i whisper 'suicide' in my head and add it to my list)

we cant know for sure, he says. not until she wakes up and we can ask her what she remembers.

we told the MIT kids to call us anytime if they needed something. tried to explain to them what information we'd gathered. i went through her case sheets, prescriptions. no oral steroids, thank god. but still, loads of anti histamines.
what more could we do?
we walked away thinking about how precious life is, and how narrow the margin for error is.

waterpolo, birthday, other random stuff

we DID win water polo.

the first time round, we beat the 2nd years at 2-1. thats when we figured we actually had a shot at the tournament. then we went on to beat F2, who're the reigning water polo champions. we beat them 5-0. wow. after that we played finals, against F2 again, we won 2-1.

yay! its the first time i've played a team game seriously. and i've bonded with the girls so much. its a different kind of connection you feel when you get to know ppl by playing with them on a team. i guess its like what soldiers must feel for each other during war.

KMC won utsav too, just like every year for the last 7 years. sigh. im seriously thinking its rigged. its no fun. knowing that there's no competition.

my birthday! no alcohol this year (surprise surprise!) i just went out for dessert with DramaQueen, Boy and BadGirl. yes, i know, corny names, but i dont feel creative right now. they bought me lots of mint chocolate mousse (yummy!) and a breezer. (oh crap, did i say no alcohol? breezer doesnt count).

i had an Ophtho end posting the next day.. so couldnt do anything wild. everyone knew i was stressed out, and i totally failed the end posting too. it was an OSCE and he gave us the answers at the end and i realised i hadnt got fifty percent correct. sniff sniff.

so anyway, that evening, i was called to lib CCD under some random pretext and i went along naively. to find the entire EdBoard there, with a chocolate fantasy cake, and a big card that everyone signed :) wow. it was an actual surprise. very very sweet of them. ( im so GLAD, i feel so loved. and i try my BEST not to make the same mistakes the previous E-in-C made with her team. so its gratifying to know that they love me)

and they made me a newspaper crown and sash (what IS it with editors and newspapers?? i'll never get it) which they made me wear. and there were sooo many pics!

Mag work has stalled (panic attack!). i have exams starting June 1st, have started studying. i try to be in the lib for an hour or two everyday.

we (the aforementioned four) might make a trip to Gokarna next week. 2 days of decadent fun. sun sand beach alcohol mentholsmokes moonlight seaspray: you get the idea :)

im swinging towards the girls again. specifically, towards BadGirl. she's my new muse. and she's dependable! for a change.