why dint you call ?

hmm
this is just getting more and more bizarre. or maybe its just coz i had a beer, and danced with this hot guy who practically begged to be allowed to. not to mention the cigarette that made me reel.

wow that was fun. havent done that in a while.

which reminds me.

must lose weight.
must use natural summer induced anorexia to stop eating much, and must substitute biscuits with fruits.

must also begin studying seriously.
to that end:

1. must prevent debilitating headaches
2. must stop reading fiction
3. must stop surfing online/chatting online
4. must not sleep 12 hours a day
5. must open prescribed textbooks and READ

i think i've become a little too overconfident because of previous record. i just got lucky thats all. and doing really badly in the third sessionals is going to kill my confidence for the uni's.

feeling really good about myself. probably because im still high, its half past three in the morning (i LOVE the night, havent done this in so long.. missed it), and im listening to marroon5.

though i have NO RIGHT to feel good about myself. i SHOULD be feeling:

1. guilty
2. anxious
3. lonely
4. sad

sd, you've been awesome. i love you. we're still kinda like we used to be before.... despite the huge time and distance gap.