On: A Vacation, and how it doesnt depend on anything but your mood, and how I'm not going to let anything ruin mine

A Vacation:
Short trip to Palolem, we leave in 2 days, six of us (very tolerant, non judgemental and broad minded people) travelling via the Matsyagandha at 230 pm, getting there by 7pm and chilling thereafter.
Chilling:
1. Will reduce (or actually, ELEVATE) myself to state of extreme hippie-ness. so, bye bye hair brush and shoes, hello harem pants and peasant tops and barefoot walking and anklets and beads and untied hair and a general attitude of not caring what people think. ah, my soul is laughing already.

2. Will always have alcohol in a glass attached to my hand. if not my hand, then nearest flat topped stable suface. port wine and beer. slow drinking, leading to a slow sustained buzz all morning, afternoon and night. heeeee!

3. a pack of ciggies ready and waiting for the perfect moment to be lit by one of us and then passed around in a moment of communal spirituality. sigh. beautiful moments.

4. food. good goa-type hippie comfort food. pancakes and ginger tea and porridge. but mostly pancakes for me.

5. will forget completely the existance of the following:

• Manipal (where is it? some north east state right?)
• Med students (uh im just an ignorant hippie who wouldnt know what to do if someone had a heart attack right next to me)
• Exams (Im only testing myself on the ability to drink, smoke and eat in perfect balance to create the most ideal state of being)
• Parents (so that i dont feel too guilty about the eating drinking and smoking)

6. The appropriate use of herbs (?) maybe, maybe not

7. will lose track of time. the number of hours (days?) idled away are not to be counted and begrudged. i will unwind. slowly. till im hypotonic.

8. massage opportunities. enough said.

9. candlelight after sunset. waves. the sound of waves at night. the sunset. the sand. will sit around soaking up the energy.

Very little of how enjoyable the vacation will be depends upon the weather, who cares if its raining. as long as im sitting on the floor in harem pants with alcohol and friends around me, im good :)

really looking forward to this trip (for obvious reasons: im too close to suicide)

apart from that, im presenting pre eclampsia tomorrow and i have to work on that, which sucks, because all i feel like doing right now is...looking for my torch and checking for new batteries and charging my camera and my ipod and packing clothes and...