"Breathe (2 AM)"

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

Anna Nalick


the most beautiful song ever.
its so nice to have someone prompt you to breathe.. feels like a relief that someone's there looking out for you.

in other news
everyone i know is leaving my world
it seems to be a year of goodbyes. sigh.

basically im all alone in manipal. again. its like starting from scratch.

nicky's going away for good tonight. im never gonna find anyone like him ever again. but then ive lost other ppl who i wont find again. which is tragic. i dont know what point im trying to make.

HOD anat is now engaged to be married. she's leaving this may, so that leaves me with zero faculty support. she was my (almost) mentor. her story made me believe in love again. i had this warm fuzzy romantic feeling all day yesterday.. now i feel like there's hope for me and that i will end up happy and in love. of course what kinda ruins the whole story is that she's engaged to her first-year-of-college-boyfriend.. so its like they held out for each other.. for 20 years.. until they could be together again..

SV is my baby, she deserves the best, and she's keeping me very very busy. i dont know how tired i am until i get into bed at the end of the day. there's also dance practice for verve, which is tiring because its an AWESOMEly sexy acrobatic type performance.

also looking forward to end of feb: HANDOVER>> i get to make a speech and be fussed over by everyone as i officially take over the responsibility of SV.
might also be able to make it to wedding in bang, maybe early march? i need the break!

things are good as long as i dont have to think